Wednesday, November 25, 2009


#5 can tend to get overlooked at times, but Keilah Grace says the cutest things. Three is good for that. It's also good for extreme persistence, aka nagging, but we love her anyway. Her bouts of naughtiness don't outway all the joy she brings to our everyday life. Just the other day, she informed me after a bout of fussiness with Sullivan that, " He cries alot. We should put him back in your tummy." I then informed her without thinking that that would hurt mommy too much if he went back the way he came... Mmmmm. Hope she doesn't overthink that one...
Here she is all ready to go to her first birthday party without mom, and boy was she giddy with excitement, even wanting to wait on the porch in the cold for her ride. It reminded me how quick time flies, and pretty soon she'll be waiting on the porch for many things, school, a ride to Awana, a friend's house, maybe a date, when she's 35 of course... :) So much to think about and experience with this girl, but I'll love my baby in the meantime.

I'm Thankful For...

Alot, but today I'm thankful for my friends, and my friend's children who are friends with my children.
Sullivan's buddy, Nolan
and Mommy's buddy, Jill :)

Wife Material: Eden Cecilia
Isn't she stylin' in her eskimo boots?

Mommy's friend Chris, with her sweet girl, Olivia Karin

Monday, November 23, 2009

"In His Time..."

A year ago, I was being prepped for surgery (an emergency D&C) at this time. I was scared, in alot of pain, and felt like my heart had been ripped out of my body.
That night, the doctor was able to find the source of my bleeding and repair physically what was going on inside my body, but my heart would never be the same. That night every hope of holding on to something of "Faith" was gone. I was devestated, and yet even in my pain, the Lord gave me something to hold onto as He always is faithful to do.
"Hebrews 11:1 says, "Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen."
This verse seemed so applicable to me during this time, and I will always hold it's message dear. We named our sweet baby Faith in honor of this precious verse. I had no idea the whys of all of this, and even now, I don't understand. This last year, I've had a hard time wrapping my brain around my mourning process of losing this child. I long to meet and hold Faith, and yet...
Fast forward to January, and we were blessed again to know we would be welcoming another child into our family and immediate love was felt towards this baby, this life that was now growing inside of me. And I knew, I knew this baby was only possible because another baby, Faith, had died. I know it's different for every woman, but as much as I wanted and loved this new baby, I felt guilty thinking if I loved this baby, maybe that meant I didn't love Faith enough...
Fast forward again, to October 15th, almost six weeks ago, and I met that life that had been growing inside of me the last eight plus months. Sullivan Charles, which means "Peaceful Man" looked up into my eyes, and I knew, beyond a shadow of a doubt, "He makes everything beautiful in His time." ~ Ecc.3:11
I've been working on Sullivan's birth announcements, and had been wondering what verse I would like on it. I thought about using Heb 11:1, but I couldn't. That was my Faiths' verse, and I wasn't going to share it... But the Lord gave me Ecc. 3:11, and that fit perfectly in my mind. So if you happen to get an announcement in the mail this week, this was my thought process. I didn't understand losing Faith then, and I really don't now to be honest, but He does make everything beautiful in His time." That's for sure...

A prayer for Sullivan and his parents last week with our church body... "Thank you Lord, "for this child I prayed," and you brought healing to my heart."